What are you doing New Years Eve?

Happy new year, people!

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Hi, blog. Just realized today is the last day of September. Time flies so fast, eh. And that's sad, considering October might be my last month in Indonesia (until I don't know when), since, yeah, remember this? I finally got the letter of acceptance for a scholarship I applied on March, Alhamdulillah. You kno' I've been waiting for oh-so-long period of time. It seemed so unreal to me. It still is. Me? Moscow? Next month?

So..........I'm sort of busy preparing for visa and stuffs. Not THAT busy actually (I still have loads of spare time, laying on bed, watching DVDs heheh) but I realized, the time is getting closer and closer. Yet, there's still SOOO MANY MANY MANY things I'd like to do before I go, like, hanging out with friends, going to Green Canyon with Ipak, volunteering on Java Jazz Festival 2012 (did I ever tell you before? Yes, Peter Gontha picked me as a volunteer! I'm lucky, I know. But still..I couldn't join. ) or spend the nights together again with Ardi, Albi, Yogi & Ryan in Bandung just like we did last May & July. Etcetera. Etcetera.

By the way, I kinda feel like being left behind somehow. People are busy with their works. Chasing dreams. Then I look at myself & ask, "Have fun wasting your time, huh?" geez, I need to do something useful instead of spamming on my Plurk timeline with no one seems to care haha. Everyday I wake up all alone. Go out of my room and find no one but Lucy, my furball. We play for a couple of minutes and she ends up scratching my leg. So I walk back to my room. Learn some Russian-Phrases-For-Dummies or sing and duck-dance like a dumbass. I don't blame anyone for being so busy tho'. I simply need someone to talk to. Is it normal to feel this way? But hey, think again! That's what a blog is for, right? To spill it all out. To empty what's on your mind. AND I THANK YOU, BLOG. For being such a good listener.

Sincerely,

Forever-Alone-Guy.

#nowplaying: Norwegian Wood by The Beatles

“Tell me something, Toru. Do you love me?”
“You know I do.”
“Will you do me two favors?”
“You can have up to three wishes, Madame.”
“No, two will do. One is for you to realize how grateful I am that you came to see me here. I hope you'll understand how happy you've made me. I know it's going to save me if anything will. I may not show it, but it's true.”
“I'll come to see you again. And what is the other wish?”
“I want you always to remember me. Will you remember that I existed, and that I stood next to you here like this?”
“Always, I'll always remember.”

She walked on without speaking. The autumn light filtering through the branches danced over the shoulders of her jacket. A dog barked again, closer than before.

Mampir

Tadi aku mampir ke tubuhmu

tapi tubuhmu sedang sepi

dan aku tidak berani mengetuk pintunya.

Jendela di luka lambungmu masih terbuka

dan aku tidak berani melongoknya.

Joko P.

2002